Anyway I've scratched around and found some reasons to be cheerful, so here goes:
Back at school
Thanks to the magic of Solpadeine, I finally got my daughter fully rehydrated yesterday and eating small meals. Shoppers in Lidl were startled by a sudden burst of laughter in the aisles. I was delighted. And so I sent her back into school this morning, just for a half day, just to see. The verdict? She was a little quieter than usual, but ate and drank well. In the meantime I got to go for a run and wash my hair, which it badly needed!
The Wet Room is Go
Finally after months and months of choosing builders, swotting up on PEI and COF ratings (durability and slipperiness) and generally panicking about getting ripped off, I have chosen a builder, a start date has been fixed (Monday) and the tiles have been bought. By me, this morning! Showering Smiley will never be the same hassle again...
The Little Things
From chocolate and coffee, to the scent and glory of the early spring flowers defying the odds and the Irish weather in my neighbours' gardens, there's always something to take my mind off special needs land. Having my son at home means lots of interesting conversations about topics like black holes, nano-technology and possible uses for scorpion venom - a potential cure for cancer, in case you're interested. You see if he doesn't go to school, all his consoles and his laptop are locked away until 4pm, and he accepts that. He understands the need to learn during school hours, so that is what he does, with a bit of direction and frantic searching for ideas from yours truly.
Despite all this, as Smiley got better, and with the support of all my friends, I began to feel better, and now I'm well out of the black hole that I was in a few weeks ago. I hope to stay away from that grim place for a very long time...