First of all I want to apologise: I know I'm not the best Mum in the World, despite what you say. I'm still struggling with the impact of Aspergers, and its effect on you. I got many things wrong when you were younger: so often I thought you were being bold, when you must've been unable to cope. But you couldn't tell me. I really hope that it didn't spoil your childhood, but at all those smiley photos suggest you will have some happy memories at least.
I'm going to try and make it up to you over the next five years, while you are still in my care. At least you seem to be really happy at home now. That's a start, for you, and for your sisters. And you have so much potential, with your intelligence, and curiosity, and interesting observations about the world around you. I mean to help you realise it. But only if you want to, of course.
There's so much more that I want to say, but I can't, because I promised to stop writing about you, and that's hard too. It helped me to work through everything here on the blog, and I think it helped other parents to read it.
Sadly, the only accounts I've read about parenting teenagers with Aspergers have not been encouraging, at all. I'm starting to hope that we will have a much better story to tell. But it will have to wait until you are grown up enough to give truly informed consent.
Whatever happens between now and then, I want you to always remember that I love you very much.
Oh and I nearly forgot.
Happy Birthday Son,
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