It's all going horribly wrong

Six weeks to go until school starts again - and a whole new set of stresses - so we're about half way through the stupidly long summer break here in Ireland.  It all started well, but now I'd nearly sit and watch Jeremy Kyle all day over anything else.  At least I'd feel better about my parenting abilities.

Even the July Provision tutors are now being rejected by the children.  Yes even Smiley.  I think she doesn't want to do school type activities at home, so I spend the whole time trying to make it work, instead of using it to get things done.  Meantime the garden still looks hurricane-ravaged and there's a few more broken things around the house that may one day get fixed, but don't hold your breath.  Unless they're actually life threatening, they may just stay the way they are.  Perhaps if I leave them long enough the children might fix them for me?

I do have some major news:  it could mean a new start, and a little more confidence in my parenting abilities, but I've been advised not to write about it on here!   Even though I really really want to, and it might help other parents too.

So I have writer's block once again, as there's only thing on my mind.

I do keep writing.  It's just that I lose interest. There's 17 unfinished posts from the last month alone.

If I have a good day, I might actually finish one of them....



12 comments:

  1. Imagine that you already survived 4 weeks of school holidays and that you need to survive only 6 more till new school year starts... that's my reality...

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    1. Yep, I've survived 6 weeks already here! Hard to believe x

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  2. Now I really really want to know what the big news is!!!

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    1. Email me at stilllookingforbluesky at gmail dot com and I promise to share :)

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  3. Susan (Eastendmom)July 17, 2014 at 5:04 PM

    I will cross my fingers for you as to your big news & look forward to your sharing! We have the same type of stupidly long school break here in the US - my kids would get out in early to mid-June and not go back until the first week of September. Waaaaaaaaaaaaay too long. I remember trying to keep everyone occupied, and trying to keep my son with Asperger's busy so he wouldn't melt down, or start annoying his brothers for lack of something else to do, or melt down while annoying his brothers .... not one bit fun & I guarantee that whatever is going wrong it is NOT your fault! My good friend had the same problem with her son that you're having with Smiley - in his mind there were always strict divisions between home life and school life, and god forbid you tried to bring one into the other. Any kind of home services would just throw him into meltdown mode, leaving her very little respite. I think he just found school stressful and home a place to relax so he didn't want one imposing on the other. Sorry, didn't mean to write a book here. Not much to do but hang in there and pray the rest of the summer goes quickly. Home & garden are sadly always last on the list of priorities, by necessity.

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    1. Not at all, thanks so much for your comment - I may not be able to share the news on here, but if you want to email me at stilllookingforbluesky at gmail dot com, I will xx

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    1. Lol! It's special needs related and teenager-related so I am trying to be the responsible adult here and keep it to myself. But hopefully it will lead to better things :)

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  5. Oh no but soumds like some positive news on the horizon :-) - and good luck with finishing some of the 17 ;-)

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    1. I'm up to 18 now, but that one got finished and published :)

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  6. Nope, it is not your fault. Hang in there and good luck with the major news. xx

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    1. Thank you and I must remember to fill you in xx

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