Shades of grey

My son turned 14 this year and, stupidly, as the first stressful day without school drew to a close, I thought back to the summer of 06, the year my eldest turned 14. It was one of the darkest summers of my life, as my marriage finally fell apart completely. But there were also days of sun and joy and fun in Wales and Wexford, when my kids and I were a tight little team, who enjoyed each other's company and did everything together. I never imagined how far we would stray from those happy days. This year, July stretches ahead with appointments every weekday, each means that I seem to spend hours trying to plan the best strategy to ensure that they successfully happen. Sometimes they don't. Outings will be to the supermarket and the therapist, not the beach and playground. It's looking like a summer of dull grey days, no matter what the weather. There's no point in wishing for the holidays to end because they may not actually 'end' for either of my teenagers, with school officially ending for one and causing a lot of difficulty for the other.. On top of everything else I am eating far too much chocolate (and it shows). I badly need to lose some weight but how do I give up the only real indulgence I have right now? Answers on a postcard please.

So I need some reasons to be cheerful, don't I? And here they are:


  • Still loving my new eyes, even though they're not perfect.



  • Still loving the later starts in the morning.



  • A shopping trip on my own, even if it was to spend a small fortune on teachers' presents, which they totally deserved of course.  It was even sunny.



  • I have a very happy Smiley who seems blissfully unaware that she is not going back to school. And by special request here is a video of her being happy. Please excuse the Sophie, I know it's not age appropriate, but she does like it.




  • A shopping trip with one happy Smiley, one disinterested teenager, one anxious learner driver and Mum trying to direct proceedings from the back seat (don't ask, I don't even know if it's legal).The good thing was that I made it all work and the kids came home happier. Perhaps we should do it more often (no laughing at the back there please).



  • And another shopping trip. This one to Newry as a treat for my eldest to celebrate her degree result. Sadly the costs associated with the trip meant that I didn't make the usual savings, but it was a lovely day.




Ojo's World



14 comments:

  1. Lots of love from Jerusalem. Who know what next year will bring? I hope you get a few nice surprises before the next academic year starts. Meanwhile, shopping is a good distraction. xxxxx

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    1. I know, I'm learning to love Tesco :) xxxx

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  2. Shopping - and chocolate - is always good! Be kind to yourself. You have so much going on that you deserve it x

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  3. May there always some time in your days and weeks for chocolate and shopping! I agree, it sounds like a tough summer so be kind to yourself and hopefully things will turn around for you. I wish that for you most fervently :) ((xx))

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  4. You are amazing. You are making special memories for you and the children all the time. Thinking of you and your challenges and wishing you regular joys in the mix of it all. By the way, you should write a book - there is a novel in you I am sure of it

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    1. I'd love to think that I could write a book, but I think tackling it will be a few years away, thanks for your encouragement x

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  5. That's my mantra too. Be kind to yourself xx

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    1. Easier said than done though at times, isn't it? xx

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  6. Lots of love from your auntie xxx

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  7. I was sure I commented on this! Thank you for Smiley's laugh, its so wonderful to hear! I hope the summer is somewhat stress free, I'm not sure how much I'm looking forward to it either xxx

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    1. Glad you liked it, and I really hope that your summer goes well xxx

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