Apparently this is a thing now. But I've never had goals for my blog, it has always been a hobby, somewhere to let off steam, practice my writing, express my thoughts and frustrations, and create something interesting, entertaining and even pretty. I like trying to keep up with current trends in blog design, and who knows when that knowledge and experience might prove useful?
I enjoy the perks of blogging - the outings, events and freebies - and my relationship with Netflix continues, so there will be more posts about what we are watching.
I'm also frustrated - most of my life and my thoughts are occupied by my children and their needs. But as you know I try not to write about autism any more, unless it's in a very general way. Which is hypocritical of me because I now feel starved of useful information, as almost no one else writes about teenagers with autism either, so I've no idea whether things are "normal" here or not. And thank you to those rare parents who do write about their teenagers, you help me and my children more than you will ever know. But I dare not link to you here in case you get a backlash from the parent haters.
Yep, I'm mentioning them again.
Last night I read another autism parent hating article by mistake, and it made me want to give up completely, stop writing, stop advocating, stop trying to improve the lives of my children. Just crawl back into my off line cave and stay there. Perhaps I should just "accept them exactly as they are", not try to help them fit into a society that expects them to conform and pay their way. Will their special needs elders and betters look after them when I'm gone, or give up? Clearly as an "attention seeking parent" who writes about her children, I am not worthy of being their mum.
I'm still feeling angry and upset this morning, and I need to let it out somewhere, so better here than in the house, right?
Yet the teenage years are so crucial! I sometimes think that society actually just wants us to cocoon our special children for those years until they emerge as fully fledged adults, and obviously this is to happen without the need for resources, on line help, real life support or anything else.
People don't really want to know about families like mine, do they? It disturbs their happy bubble about how life is supposed to be.
Perhaps I'm only writing this because with school, work and adult services starting back tomorrow it's stress central here, and right now I'm wondering if this blog will ever again include anything except Netflix updates and my weekly free therapy sessions on Thursdays, aka reasons to be cheerful. But I've said similar things before, and always bounced back.
I hope it happens again this year, and really that's the best blog goal I could have for 2016.
Just keep on writing.
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