Tired but cheerful

I'm tired. Tired of being a round-the-clock carer. Tired of fighting for services for my teenagers with additional needs. Tired of worrying about their future and mine. Tired of everything being down to me as a lone parent. Tired of all the extra burdens the state is constantly putting on all households. Tired of feeling guilty. Tired of society's opinion of disability. Tired of what autism has done to my son. Tired of it all.


But I'm cheerful too:


  • Angel made the Sunday dinner - and kept her brother and sister company which meant that I was able to go for a long run.



  • Hanging out the washing in the balmy early morning, with a soft breeze and the birds singing.



  • A trip to Henry Street with Smiley - her favourite place and free to visit!



  • Two lovely people on twitter helped me to overcome my procrastination and start hanging a trellis in the garden. And I surprised myself by finishing the job two days later.



  • An unexpected shopping trip to Dundrum with Angel.



  • Working on a master list of activities for Smiley to prevent us from missing events that happen regularly (and Facebook hides them from me, of course).



  • A new candle to remove unpleasant smells. This one really works and looks nice too.



  • I'm running better than I have for years and managed 11.3 km in 77 minutes at the weekend.



  • A brief but companionable wander round town with my son.



  • A supported swim with Smiley at her old school. Less stress for me, more success for Smiley. I feel the need to write about it too, so watch this space.



  • Sunshine and sea views when I drove home along the coast road.




  • Seeing other special needs parents in the media standing up for the rights of our children, whether under or over 18.  Watching their determination and bravery helps me to keep going.


Head over to Mummy from the Heart for more reasons to be cheerful.


12 comments:

  1. I am so glad you have found some reasons to be cheerful!
    It sounds like the running is going really well.

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    1. Yes I am really pleased about the running :)

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  2. The idea of having a coast road to drive home on presses all my yearn buttons. I can't wait to see photos of your garden when you've dressed the trellis. I love your Angel, she's wonderful. Have a good week ahead with great running and trips into town. xxx

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    1. Thank you - this week is going pretty well so far, hope yours is too xxx

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  3. It's not easy to look on the bright side at times, especially when the caring is 24/7 365 days of the year. Glad to read that you found some bright spots this past week. I am seriously impressed with your running. xx

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  4. You are amazing X that is all x

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  5. what lovely things to be cheerful for. x

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  6. I don't think it is any wonder you are tired C, so much of what you need to help your family live a good life seems to have to be fought for, I'm so sorry this is the case. I hope this week had been a good one for you. Mich x

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    1. This week is going pretty well so far, I hope yours is too x

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